I recently left my partner of 17 years. It was a killer of a relationship however I also know in the truth of who we are it is what I signed up for.
His idea of the relationship was text book patriarchal. He wanted me to be the pretty housewife cooking his meals always with a smile and ready to take any pressures off his shoulders while I died inside boosting his distorted ego. No thank you I said and when the truth came out of me in words or actions I was either ignored or told I was mad.
It took a long time for me to realise that the way he saw the world was not my problem. I used to try to “help” him to see the world from my perspective, but you cannot assist or change anyone who does not want to assist themselves. So I just had to live life my way. So as I became a real woman, a witch, an alchemist and all the other beautiful words associated with being the truth of a multidimensional woman we lived in 2 separate worlds. Then the big eclipse in January 2019 came and finally I knew it was time to move on.
While we were togehter I had lots of coping mechanisms to stop me from actually going mad. One thing I did so that I could have more energy was to get a mirena IUD. It was great and those 7 years with a mirena I loved. It was perfect for that time in my life when life was a struggle. However not long after I left him I decided to remove it. I wanted the energy to flow through my body again.
So I made the intent in the highest possible good to remove the mirena and for it to happen at a time and place in the highest possible good (I always do this for important things in my life even timing and places of holidays and they always synchronise perfectly).
As soon as the mirena was removed I immediately felt energy moving through my ovaries and sacral area, then 3 days later as we were coming into a dark moon (the traditional time to menstruate) I stared menstruating then a beautiful lady did a group womb healing to remember that our womb is a place of creation and birthing of all things not just babies :).
I bloody love synchronicity. When you set an intention stuff happens. We are so damn powerful. In the patriarchal system we were shut down, however the only power anyone has over us is the power we give them. With every breath, thought and word I choose to create beauty, hope and love for everyone.
So now with the new moon I am having an influx of new ideas but it is different from when I had the mirena. With my sacral area back at full capacity I feel tired yes, the need to rest yes, but also grounded, earthly like I am grounding the energy in a raw true way. I am proud that I bleed. I love the shape and wisdom of my body and I am so happy that I am living in it in my knowledge and not anyone else’s idea of who we each should be.